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Sunday, 31 August 2008

1 wk down, many more to come..

the first wk of college has been an adventure to say the least. everything is so new, so different and exciting. i dont know how well i'm handling all the new changes, but i feel that i lost a sense of myself as i tried to adopt the new york life. within the first wk, i find myself in situations i've never experienced before and playing roles that i never thought i would. fresh from arise, i arrived at ny fully convinced that i would follow Christ in the best way i knew how. i was positively sure that i would have the strength to turn away from the constant temptations; i was going to prove that it is possible for an 18 yr old in nyc to say no to drugs, alcohol and sex, only live for Christ and say that i'm completely satisfied and happy with my life. i dont mean to say that in one wk i did every sinful thing in the book and that now i'm a complete mess. what i mean to say is that i found out how easy it is to fall into temptations. back at home, i'm surrounded by so many things that remind me of who i am and what i believe in and so it was easy for me to say no and to tell others to say no too. but here, i only have myself to remind me that i can and should say no. like a domino effect, when i give into a single, small temptation, it leads to other bigger ones so naturally that i barely even notice how far i got sucked into it until i step out of it and reflect back. and at times like this, i realize how i should have handled the situations differently, but when i come face to face with another temptation, i fall into it easier than i did previously just because i've now developed a pattern. rather than learning from my mistakes, i'm making it a habit.
since it's only been a wk, i still have a lot of time before anything really settles. but still, i have faith that God sent me to ny for a reason, even though it hasn't been made clear to me yet.

Saturday, 23 August 2008

First day moving in!!

i woke up at 5 in the morning to leave for lang. for some reason, i couldn't sleep at all last night.. hopefully get some more sleep tonite. so far, the new school is pretty awesome.. my dorm is a lot better than i thought it'd be. there's a full kitchen-minus an oven- bathroom, broom closet, coat/ linen closet and a dining area which my suitemates n i decided to turn into a living room. my suitemates are also amazing, so i think i'll be a-ok :)
went fishing with john yesterdat cuz i promised i'd go w/ him b4 i leave for college.. bad idea. we were there for 30 mins n i ended up w/ 12 mosquito bites while john had none.. i'm pretty angry about that. about 10 of them r on my leg n i cant wear shorts cuz i look like i have chicken pox jus on my leg from the bites.. grrr >.<
i'm falling asleep at the computer.. ahh g'nite~

Saturday, 20 January 2007

i baked a cake today.. thought it was all done, but guess the middle wasn't baked --;; hahaha oops but it still looks pretty : D
watched barn yard too.. haha fun stuff.. but caffeine drugged ppl wont let me go to sleep T-T

Sunday, 07 January 2007

christmas may not have had a lot of magic.. but new yrs eve made up for it.. ^^ thanks to all the ppl who helped~ u guys r amazing >.<... seriously, what other wackos would run around in the cold (some w/o a jacket xD) like that?? xD haha love u guy~ <333
2007 has not been too bad so far.. good things have been happening.. n hopefully they last :)
for new yr's resolution, my whole family decided to get a gym membership n go every wkday..apparently the lady looked at us with huge eyes n was like 'you're ALL getting a membership???" o.0;; haha but i gotta say, it's quite a sight.. a huge asian mob walking in n taking over the place.. muhaha
painfully, it cuts into my nap time.. *sigh* i guess it was about time i stoped that habbit.. ha
the trials for Mock is gonna start at the end of this month.. i'm not ready!!! >.< but i have to admit.. the PB&J sandwiches were good.. haha oh, our productive meetings keke
hope everyones 2007 is going well..^^